apple crumble pie
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
5:16 PM
i baked an apple crumble pie today. though i dont really know how it will taste like as it has been really long since i last bake apple crumble pie. i think the last time i baked it was in sec 1 for someone really dear to me. but now the pie is still in the oven, but it does smell nice, today i am baking it for my mum. yesterday she said she felt like eating it, so i told her i know how to bake and so i did (: hopefully my memory doesnt fail me and i didnt forget to add anything that i was supposed to or added things i wasnt supposed to. it was pretty much trial and error. but hopefully it will turn out nice.
baking the pie, brought back lots of memories of someone really dear to me. he was the last person if i didnt remember wrongly baking the pie for. i knew that day he was coming to my place for dinner and knowing that he loves to eat such sweet stuff, i baked it for. that day i remembered he ate two slices of the pie and he loved it. just the other day, mum went to angie the choice to get durian roll for my aunt, it again brought back alot of memories. i bought a durian roll and bubble tea for him to the hospital when i went to see him. he was so happy. he was really happy when we got him a cake from angie the choice too to celebrate his birthday. he loved to eat and he sure do know how to eat the good food. (:
if you are wondering who this is, he is my dear uncle. he left me when i was only in sec 1. at that time i made a promise to him that i would buy him a meal if i did manage to go to the express stream in sec 2 as i did not believe that i could while he believed that i could. i still owe him that meal. he left even before i could buy him a meal. well at least i got him durian roll and a cup of bubble tea before he left. i guess that motivated me in a way, i wanted him to buy me a meal. i guess he knew i could, and now if he sees where i am. i hope that he will be proud and will be happy.
thinking about him, it reminds me of my other dear uncle that left me when i was only in p6, before my psle. i knew that he wanted me to do well for my psle, but i didnt really do as well. but now, i do hope that he is proud and happy at where i am. he was a man of few words. i remember him always coming over to my place to fix a new hi fi set or some sound system at my place that he bought for us. then he would teach me how to use it. i would look at him fixing it in total awe, he would be covered in sweat by the time he finished. he really loved my family alot.
my family is really close knit, it is kinda good and kinda bad. good in a way that we are always there for each other when we can. bad is that when one leaves, it is really heart breaking. i lost three uncles. it was really hard at each time. though i have grown, it is still as heart aching as when i was young. though through all this, i have learnt to become stronger, to become more matured as i know what is it to loose someone really close really young. they were like my father to me. i truly miss them so much.
though i have regrets, but i sure do know that they are in a better place right now. having fun together.
i was just thinking, will i be able to take it the next time someone goes, i guess i still wont be able to. espcially if it is someone really close to me. it is hard. but this is part and parcel of life. but i am sorta glad i got to know what it was like when i was young, so that i can grow up to be a stronger person.
the pie is done, i am going to see how it taste like (:
<3 broken never mended ;
