life it worth more than this;
Monday, December 26, 2005
4:49 PM
this post is to my DARLING CHERYL,
girl you know that i love you alot and i really care for you. please dont do things to hurt yourself. you know it seriously pains me to see you like this. i hurts me when everytime he does things to hurt you. i love you, and i always tell you that you are worth more than this. i know at this point in time, you must being really wondering where is God, but let me tell you, He has always been there. think about it, if without Him, will you go this far. He has bless you with so many things and He has bless me by giving you to me (:
you know, i was seriously upset last night when you told me you drank alot. ): i wanted so much to be there by your side and just hug you and let you cry it all out instead of drinking down your sorrows cos that never works.
i wanted so much to pour cold water on you and tell you to get a grip. well i was actually but i think you didnt bother to listen to me.
i know it was mean of me to say that this is a good christmas pressie but i mean, you have been suffering for so long and i guess it is kinda good that it is over. i know that you really did love him. but does he. you really do deserve someone who will appreciate all that you have done and will do. and he deserves someone who can tolerate all his nonsense. each of you deserve someone else.
think about it, you are still young. he isnt the only guy you will ever meet. so why do this.
many out there are clinging on to their lives and you, just because of this you want to end it all. many out there want to feel loved, but you got so many others who love you so much. you know that there is someone who will always love you, that is God and ME! so why bother about one guy when you have many others who care and love you. and i am sure one day you will find someone who will love you even more than him.
i have said all i can, if you still want to do things your way. i have nothing else to say. it is your choice but think of the consequences. and always know that I LOVE YOU and your family do too. (:
and think, if what you are doing, is it pleasing God because ultimately, it is God that we are living for and it is because of God that you have this life. (: every breathe you breath is His. and He loves you way sooooo much and will never leave you or forsake you. every tear you cry is in his hands. (:
Love, clarissa
i will always be there for you.
<3 broken never mended ;