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trying to forget you`
is like trying to remember someone you never met
trying to let you go
`is like trying to keep something which i never attained

it's you
you who have won my heart
taken me into your arms
comforted me like a friend
your love
surrounded me from the start
i never want to be apart
from you ever again

christian bautista lyrics
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now i know

Monday, November 07, 2005
1:56 PM

i have been thinking alot this whole 2 months and i lots of things came to light. i have been brought to a point of realisation on many things.
however most of the things that i found out and realise are things that are not so nice. but i guess that is kinda good that i know now. (:
these past few days i have been kinda down but i dont know why and what am i feeling. all i know is that i am not in the right state of mind. (: lol.
i know that i want to write down alot of things down but right now it is all lost in my memory so if the entry doesnt flow forgive me. i am just typing out whatever comes to my mind.

first things first, school is starting tomorrow yet i dont feel the least excited or happy about it. in fact when i saw the time table on friday, i was seriously upset. it just spoiled my whole day, i dont know why but i felt my whole world crumbling down. later i realise that i was afraid. i was full of fear. what i saw wasnt mearly a timetable but what i saw was something more than that, i didnt want to fail again. i saw how many subjects we were taking and that scared me, i dont know if i can make it or will i fail again. i dont want to fail i dont know if i can cope. i feet so hopeless. i couldnt do anything, i felt the pressure by just looking at my timetable. i dont know if you understand what i am saying cos i too dont know what i am feeling. all i know is that i am scared. plus i am taking jap. i dont know if i can take that subject or will i just fail it altogether. i seriously dont feel like going to school. i dont want to go and later realise that i am not cut out for it. and that all the effort that i put in will just go down the drain. ):

next thing, after that day i realise how much i am being heard. you know it is really hard to talk to you sometimes when you dont even listen to what i have to say. all you have to say is all the negative things about me and yet dont even listen to me explain. i wonder why am i doing all this when all i do is for you yet you dont see it. you know me taking this course is also all for you. i didnt even want to be here in the first place. i never in my whole life thought of coming to poly. in fact biomedical is what you wanted me to do. not me. all along i wanted to go to a jc but no you said biomedical was a good course, people who take it have a bright future. but now you tell me that when i go out of poly all i can do is those minimal jobs like maybe wash test tubes. sigh- i dont know. but i guess i cannot blame you for my disgusting results that i always get. i guess i gotta really work harder so that i wont disappoint you.

next, i realise that i have given up on myself. maybe that is because all my life i never am able to achieve what i really want so i have sorta given up on life. on pursing what i want so i maybe i dont really want to do anything anymore. honestly i wish i can just sleep the whole day. really, cos in my sleep i dont have to think about anything. in my sleep i can get what i really want and not feel pain when i dont get what i want. i dont want to feel the way i am anymore so i might as well give up on life so that at least i wont feel so bad. right? i mean what do i have in life when like most of it was bad. all that i achieved is failures. nothing came out of this life.

sigh- i guess that is it for now. dont really know what else to say. everything that will come out will be just negative stuff so why say it out. anw, even if i do say things out, there wont be any change will there. even if i do say, will people listen. sigh-

anw i saw him on fri after so long. he did his hair. i thought i long gone got over it but when i saw him again, i started to have that feeling all over again sigh- get over it already! but he didnt see me anyways. and i am not planning to bump into him anymore. (:

oh and i really glad that someone is back to her normal self. (: you got me really worried there. all your blog post and not talking to anyone just scares me.

to my DARLING cheryl
all the best for you o levels! dont worry so much. (: i am behind you all the way! oh and dont forget to pray before the paper! i will be praying for you too! (: love you sweets!

replies;
ah-man-da;
sure i will call you next time. (: i want to go for a walk soon. maybe everyday after school i will slowly walk home! haha! (: see you in school!


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