things are not as simple as they seem
Friday, September 23, 2005
9:10 PM
life is always much deeper, much more complex.
you know i am so sick and tired of this life. i really wish that one day God will just take me home. i am tired, weary and i dont have the strength to continue anymore.
i have been thinking alot at night, i was just thinking last night if something bad were to happen again, i wont be able to take the blow and guess what-today something must just get to me.
although many may just see it as something so minor but to me it is a really big thing to me- results. to me exams are really precious and somehow it is not just about the grades that affect me is everything else besides that. things are not as simple as they seem to be, they are much deeper. that is why i am so affected by it. okay, take it that i dont have to take any supplementary paper is already a good thing but still. sigh- i just feel that all my two weeks of studying just went down the drain and more then that too. it just proves what i have been thinking of myself all these while. it just proves that i am a failure.
there are just so many things running through my head now. sigh-
i need to knock some sense into me.
<3 broken never mended ;